This morning I woke up tired again. I wiggled my toes and watched the dark green stripes on my socks move and dance. I’m not sure what I’m doing with my life these days. Unemployment while in college is not fun – especially when you spend most of the hours of the day within the confines of your home.

After letting out a few yawns, I lazily walked into the bathroom to brush my teeth. No sense showering today. I wasn’t leaving the house. I absently stared at my reflection in the mirror for a few minutes.

My world has been getting smaller rather than larger, lately. This seems to be contributing to my dull mood. The job market sucks. My classes suck. My hygiene (lately) sucks.

This morning I woke up tired again. I clenched and unclenched my hands and gritted my teeth. My morning cup of tea was moderately refreshing and I sat sipping it while watching an elephant paint a self-portrait.

I decided it was time to get down to business and submitted my resume to a few job listings while reading my next assignment while taking a practice quiz while changing songs on my Zune while eating a bagel while reading the news.

My brain whirred and chugged along, retaining this bit of information and releasing that bit. Multi-tasking sucks. Studying sucks. This tea sucks.

This morning I woke up tired again. I grumbled and mumbled my way out of bed and into my bathroom. I stared at myself in the mirror for a few minutes before brushing my teeth. My eyes were droopy. The corners of my mouth were droopy. After a quick gargle and rinse, my gaze drifted toward the shower and I shrugged. I wasn’t leaving the house today.

The cream cheese on my bagel was a welcomed diversion from the white snowy patches in my yard. I stood over the sink, bagel in one hand, newspaper in the other. I read the funny papers and chomped on my bagel, occasionally chuckling over Marmaduke’s antics or how Dennis isn’t really very menacing at all.

I washed the plate I had set my bagel on and watched a squirrel run across the snow in my backyard. Routines suck. Snow sucks. This bagel sucks.